Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Holiday Cheer

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and also the 10K Turkey Trot.  I have a half day at work today so I am stopping and picking up my bib and t-shirt on my way home from work. It's not that far out of my way. I'm looking forward to the run but also anxious.

I always get anxious before a run regardless of the length. My internal monologue runs along these lines:

"I can't do it. What am I thinking? There's no way I can run a 5K/10K/Half Marathon! I'm not properly trained! It's going to be cold out! I'm a terrible runner!"

And then the morning of the race dawns and I suck it up and go out and have fun. I don't have a goal for this race. I haven't ran a 10K in a really long time and I honestly don't remember my time from that. So I want to finish strong. That's my goal. Finish strong, Meg!

It's supposed to be 21 degrees tomorrow morning. But it's supposed to FEEL like 12 degrees. Plus, snow showers! I have my outfit all planned out. I wanted to get some new winter running gear but Hubs wants to get me some stuff for Christmas so I will use what I have. I'm wearing tights under a running skirt, a long sleeve tech shirt under a regular t-shirt and a fleece over that. Plus a winter hat and gloves. I'll take a picture of my whole kit with my bib tonight and post it.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Monday, November 25, 2013

The Freakin' Weekend

I had a fantastic weekend.

Unfortunately, I didn't run on Saturday or Sunday. But, it's ok, I am back on the running wagon this week. In fact, I am running a 10K on Turkey Day and will make a nice race recap. I figured I would do that so anyone looking for info on how the race is for an overweight not super fit person can find this blog. I looked up race recaps of the DC Nike Women's Half Marathon before I registered and they were all written by women who were all "I ran it at an 8 minute per mile pace" to which I say good for you and HA not gonna happen for me,

What I'm saying is, I'd like my race recaps to help people like me. So I will recap all of my races in hopes a Google search leads someone here and they can find out how to run the Detroit Turkey Trot while being somewhat plump.

Where was I?

The weekend was spectacular. I saw an opera on Saturday night, my first ever. It was exactly what I had hoped it would be and then some. And I saw "Catching Fire" on Sunday. It was fantastic. I very, very rarely like the movie as much as I like a book. In this case, I would say I like it as much. If you liked the first movie you will like this one, I promise.

And I spent plenty of time crawling around on the floor after my little guys. We had a blast. I have a short work week this week so I'm looking forward to extra time with my guys, spending time with family, running a race and just having a great Thanksgiving week.

I also spent an incredible amount of time cleaning out basement and starting prep on it for the holiday parties we're hosting. I have a friend party the second weekend in December. Then we're hosting Christmas brunch with my family. And the weekend after Christmas we're celebrating the boys' first birthday. Crazy! Let the holiday madness begin!

How was your weekend?

Friday, November 22, 2013

This is How We Do It

My mother--in-law took a picture of me with the boys and I just saw it today. And instead of saying, "my goodness look at my cute baby boys who are growing up so quickly" my first thought was "my goodness I am fat."

I hate that feeling.

I hate looking at myself in pictures. I hate feeling all my flabby skin when I'm getting ready to shower. There is so much I just cannot stand that I could probably start crying as I type this.

This is why I run. This is why I haul my tired ass out of bed three mornings a week and one morning on weekends. I don't want to be fat. I don't want to hate my body. I want to look forward to dressing up and looking pretty and taking pictures with my two awesome little guys.

Here is the photo:
Hi stinkers!
I know my posture is terrible and it's not a really flattering picture to begin with. But, still, I hate it. I HATE IT! It makes me sad. At least the babies are really cute.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

The Wanderer

I got lost on my run this morning.

I got lost in my own neighborhood.

I live around streets that run at weird angles and somehow when I thought I was running towards one main road, I was actually running towards the main road that runs perpendicular to that one. So I was running in the wrong direction.

That's what I get for changing up my route.

Luckily, I didn't go that far out of my way so I was able to get back on track and get home. I was only a few minutes late so I caught up by flying through my shower and morning routine. Whew. And, in good news, I ran almost four miles because of my mess up so hey, nice work out!

Seriously, who gets lost in their own neighborhood?

I've been listening to Pandora on my phone while I run but just now realized that it kinda sucks. When I listen to Pandora on my work computer I shuffle my stations so it changes things up. For some reason when I use my phone it plays one of my stations. That station is Top 40 hits or something like that, which is great and all when I need some fast tunes. However, I don't know a lot of the songs (sorry, not much of a radio person) which means I end up spending most of my run trying to figure out what the eff I'm listening to. And while that does provide a distraction, it also sucks.

 I lost my charger for my iPod shuffle but I'm going to get a new one on ebay so I'll load that up with some new songs and be on my merry way. In fact, it should arrive next Wednesday woo hoo.

I'm going to enjoy a rest day tomorrow and then run lots of miles on Saturday and Sunday. Saturday is the Doctor Who 50th Anniversary, so I'm working out for 50 minutes while wearing a fez. It helps that I'll  be working out and watching Doctor Who from the comfort of my own basement so no one can judge me.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Skip to My Lou

I didn't run this morning.

The alarm went off and I looked at it and realized I wanted to sleep a whole lot more than I wanted to run.

I'm disappointed in myself. But, at the same time, I needed the sleep so I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I didn't run this morning and that is OK. I will run tomorrow and I will run on Sunday.

I avoided eating McDonald's for breakfast this morning. That's a point in the "Go Meg" category. I'll take it! I know fast food is terrible. I know it's not good for me. I know it is made up of the worst of the worst chemicals and food products. But, still, I can hear it's siren's song. Ugh. I can do it.

My plan is to get in a workout tonight once the boys go to bed. I finally cleaned out our basement last weekend so I've got a nice workout space. I figure I can go down there with some weights, the DVR full of "Doctor Who" episodes and make something happen. Wish me luck!

I've been thinking about cross training lately. I used to swim in high school and I loved it. I really feel the urge to get back in the pool coming on strong. Of course, that would mean I'd need a gym membership. I'm anti L.A. Fitness. I don't know about your area, but the one closest to me is full of tiny, trendy women in Lulemon pants and sports bras. Not my bag. There's a YMCA that's close and I could see doing that a couple of nights a week. Just have to factor in the cost with our budget and see what happens.

The beauty of running is, amongst other things, it is so cheap!

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Doctor Who Virtual 5K

I am a geek. I am a nerd. I'm a nerdy geek!

Today I signed up for a Doctor Who Virtual 5K in honor of the Doctor Who 50th Anniversary episode which airs internationally on Saturday. Woo-hoo! I saw a link to it from a blog I read and checked it out. And since I ran more than 3.1 miles today I figured I would count today as my Virtual 5K day. Yay me!

The good news is my virtual 5K time was way faster than my 5K time from the start of this month. So that's a plus.

I have never been one for speed. Most of the time when I run a race my goal is to get to the finish line and maybe get there faster than the last time I ran that distance. And if not, hey, at least I got to the finish line.

I did change my route up a little bit so I could run up and down a slight hill we've got in the neighborhood. It wasn't much but since I'm used to pancake flat it helped. My quads are feeling it today!

Thanksgiving is next week! I'm signed up for a 10K on Thanksgiving morning. It's usually a crowded mess so I don't have any plan for that race other than to have fun and finish it and enjoy. I'll hopefully be running with one of my friends, but if she's faster than me, I'll be on my own. I'm ok with that. Again, my motto is "get to the finish line without passing out".

Monday, November 18, 2013

Weekend Running

I had every intention to get up early on Saturday and go for a run before the boys woke up. But, when my alarm went of at 5:50AM I looked at it and said, "Hell no." I went back to sleep. The boys woke up about 7:30AM so I got up with them, got them bottled and breakfasted, and then hung out with them until about 9:30AM when Hubs got up and I went off to my rehearsal.

I'm in a Christmas play, by the way. Hence the Saturday rehearsal.

I did run on Sunday, so the weekend wasn't a total loss. I got up about 7:30AM with Hubs and the boys and helped with bottles. Then he hung with the crew while I went for a 3.5 mile run. It felt good but the stupid stop watch on my phone didn't work so I guessed how long I was running and I must've been wrong because my miles came in at WAY slower than I've been running lately. I know there was a two day gap between runs but I didn't lost that much speed!

I'm pondering getting a Garmin. It's just a pondering for now. Maybe for my birthday in April? We'll see how I do with my running over the winter. They aren't cheap and I would hate to get one and then not use it.

Speaking of running over the winter, I registered to be in the lottery for Nike's Women's Half Marathon in Washington D.C. My husband does a golf trip with all of his friends in March so this will be my equivalent to his golf trip. I'll find out by the second week of December if I'm in it so yay! It's the same day as the Glass City Marathon so if I don't get in I'll just run the half in Toledo. I'll be training no matter what. I have friends in DC who have volunteered their couches and promised to come out and cheer me on so that would be awesome!

AND, I lost a few pounds, so this was overall a pretty good weekend!

Thursday, November 14, 2013

This Sucks

Today's run was brutal. I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to run. Usually I get into a zone after the first mile. Today I was fighting to keep moving all the way through the almost three mile run. Three or four times, usually when I came to an intersection, I had to battle myself and force myself to turn AWAY from home instead of run back towards it.

Was it a good run? No.

Did I go out and run even though my mind and body really, really, REALLY didn't want to? Yes.

I consider it a win.

Part of my problem, I'm sure, was I didn't properly hydrate yesterday. Somehow I got distracted and didn't drink my usual servings of water during work. And by the time I got home it was baby time and then bed time and nowhere in there did I drink enough water.

My legs were a little crampy during my run and I'm sure that was part of it.

Meg, today you are going to drink your water!

And tomorrow I have no run or workout scheduled so I can sleep in an extra forty-five minutes which will be glorious.

I read this somewhere and I wish I knew who said it, because I would love to credit that person. He or she said, "Who is the better runner? The one who runs effortlessly without much training? Or the one who struggles through every workout but still manages to get out there and run?"

I think about that when I'm one of the last people on a course be it a marathon, a half marathon or a 5K. Sure, people are finishing much, much faster than me. But I am here and I am running and at some point I am going to finish, too.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

An Adjustment Period

"I don't want to get up. I'm tired. This sucks. It's cold outside."

This was my mantra as I hauled my ass out of bed and got dressed in my dark bedroom. I whined internally while I brushed my teeth. I whined while I tied my shoes and bundled up. I whined while I walked the first half a block of my neighborhood to warm my legs up.

I even whined internally those first few steps or running, except that internal whine sounded like this: "Ouch. Ouch. My knees hurt. My feet hurt. This sucks. Running sucks. Let's go back to bed."

I didn't go back to bed.

I consider each morning I do this, each morning I climb out of bed an hour earlier than I need to be awake, a success. This morning was a success.

I ran 2.77 miles at a 12:30 pace. Not too shabby.

Because I get up SO early (for all of you who wake up earlier than me, who have to get up for work at 5AM I salute you and I applaud you and I feel sorry for you. Feel free to make fun of me for whining about my 6:00Am wake up call.) I like to have my work outfit picked out the night before.

It took forever because I don't have much cold weather dress clothing. Last year at this time I was eight months pregnant with twins so I was wearing maternity clothes. And now that the babies are born I am much bigger than I was two winters ago so I don't fit into any of my old "regular" clothes. I have purchased a few things and am trying to make do with what I have, but it's tough.

It's funny, you would think my belly would be my problem area. I mean, obviously, it's a bit stretched out, but I've never had a tiny and trim stomach so that doesn't bother me as much. What really bothers me is my back fat. Ugh, how I hate it. I have a hard time finding bras that don't make stuff squish out the back and because of that I hate wearing tops that are even remotely clingy because what do clingy shirts cling to? Back fat!

I'm trying to come to peace with it. I am working out and eating well and I know, eventually, it will go away. But for now, I hate to look in the mirror and I hate the way I look in most clothing. So, it's a hard battle. And I know it will help if I have clothes that are more flattering to my current body but how does one buy clothes to flatter a body she despises?

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Oh the Weather Outside is Frightful

Well, hello snow.

Of course, this wasn't real snow, not by Michigan standards. When I drove home from work yesterday evening I could tell it was snow and not rain but it wasn't really sticking to anything. This morning as I ran I noticed some white stuff on the piles of leaves and I was all "oh hey, it did snow last night".

I don't mind snow. I've never really ran in it but I live in an AWESOME city where the city plows all of the sidewalks. ALL OF THEM. So I know if it does snow, it won't be in my way for very long. Seriously, is that not the coolest thing ever?

I got up ten minutes earlier today than I have in the previous weeks. I figure if I can get up at 6:10AM I can get up at 6:00AM. So I did. And I almost ran three miles this morning! I'm super stoked by that because I'd like to get three miles (each workout) in during the week and maybe get a longer run or two in on the weekends, depending on the boys.

I felt good. It was cold and I could see my breath come out in steamy puffs in my headlamp. This was one of those few mornings where I wasn't grunting and groaning that first mile. I hate the first mile of any run. I know I'm not alone on this, right? It just sucks. Once I get past the first mile I can get in the groove but man, mile one blows. Today, not so much, but most days UGH. Amiright?

Funny story. I decided to run a certain way so I could drop off a long overdue thank you card to the neighbors who live behind us. They dropped off adorable outfits for the boys MONTHS ago and I wanted to get them a card. Well, FINALLY I got one together and went to stick it in their mailbox. The first time I ran past their house I couldn't figure out if it was the right one, it was a little too dark out. So, I figured I would just run past it on my way home since it would be lighter out. It certainly was lighter and as I came up to the house I figured it was the right one. Of course, at that moment they were pulling out of their driveway. I didn't want them to see me deliver the card and I felt stupid so I waved and kept running. At least now I know it's definitely their house!

Here's a picture of one of my shoes and the MASSIVE snow we got:
If you look very closely you can see a little white stuff on some of the leaves.

Monday, November 11, 2013

My Morning Jacket...

...and the other stuff I wear for my morning workout.

I used to like running in the evening a whole lot more than getting up earlier than I was required to for work. And then I had kids and realized that getting up a little bit early works way better than attempting to stay up once the kiddos go to bed.

In order to make sure I get up for my runs and actually get out the door I set out all of my workout clothes the night before. I sleep with my hair in a loose bun on top of my head (I got into the habit while I was nursing and just kept it up) so I always have my ponytail holder at the ready.

Depending on the weather I lay out running tights, a skirt, a tech tee and a hooded sweatshirt. I have my Galloway timer so I can do my walk/run without looking at my phone. It is awesome! I stick my socks in my shoes and I am good to go. I leave my headphones and bandana at the door so I know where they are and don't waste any time searching for them.

For now, I run a little over two miles. I don't want to get up much earlier than I do which means if I want to run longer I'll have to run faster. Ha! I think I'll start getting up earlier in small increments, say ten minutes, to get used to it. When all is said and done I'll feel like I'm sleeping in on weekends when I get up with the boys at 7:00AM.

Another One Bites the Dust

Somehow I managed to lose a pound this week. It's just one pound, but with the way I was eating I should've gained pounds.

I am addicted to fast food. I'm only half joking about this. When I quit smoking years ago I started eating in my car instead of smoking, something I'm sure a lot of former smokers started doing. Supposedly, there's some sort of link in the brain between craving nicotine and being hungry so when one cannot have one they do the other. I read it somewhere, I swear!

All those years ago I started eating in my car and it is a damn near impossible habit to break. Each week I tell myself "this is the week where I don't eat fast food" and each week I find myself pulling through the stupid drive-thru lanes. I do this even when I'm not starving, even when I know I am on my way home to EAT DINNER WITH MY FAMILY.

I can do it. I can resist it.

I tend to make healthier decisions on days I run so that helps. Unfortunately, I missed some workouts last week and I missed one today, because they hubs had to leave for work super early.

At least I lost a pound. And here's hoping there are more pounds to follow.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Turkey Trot

Do you have a race in your city on Thanksgiving day? There's one Detroit sponsored by the Parade Company that runs the route of the Detroit Thanksgiving Day Parade. This was the first race I ran, six years ago, and I've never been back.

This year one of my friends, a self-described "slow and old runner", is going to do the Turkey Trot 10K on Thanksgiving morning. And I am registering today so I can run it with her.

This race is one of the largest races in Michigan. They get quite the turnout, something like 20,000 runners. I'm not looking forward to the mess of parking and getting down there but I'll figure something out. I might be able to meet my friend somewhere on the way so we can all carpool together.

Husband's got the boys that morning and I think if the timing is right I should be home with plenty of time to shower and play with the guys until we have to head to his aunt's house for dinner.

I figure if you run a 10K on Thanksgiving that entitles you to an extra slice of pie. Amiright?

Because I'm doing the Turkey Trot this month I'm going to count the Superhero 5K, which happened right at the beginning of this month, as an October race. So my goal of a race a month started in October. That means I've got to run a race a month all the way through October 2014. I can do this!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Here I Am

I started running in 2007. I also quit smoking in 2007. It was a big year for me. I have gone so far as to run a marathon in 2010 (my first and only) and a handful of half marathons in between.

Since I first started running I fell in love, got married and recently gave birth to twin boys. Maybe not so recently, they'll be one in December.

It's been hard for me to get back on the fitness track. I know I have read somewhere how "you don't know what tired is until you have kids" and for me it's true. By the time I get home from work the idea of doing anything more physical than put on my comfy pants makes me want to cry. In the evenings, I just want to spend time with my babies and eat carbs.

I solved this problem by running in the mornings. I don't have to get up THAT early, I wake up at 6:00am three days a week and run for a little over two miles each day. I haven't been doing this very long, just over two weeks. This morning when my alarm went off I didn't want to get up.

And then I realized I need to make myself accountable. And give myself a goal.

My goal for the rest of this year and into 2014 is to run a race, usually a 5K, but whatever I want, a month. One race a month. And next year I want to run TWO half marathons. I want to run one in the late spring or early summer and one in the fall. The one in the fall is a woman's only half marathon, the same one I ran this fall. Well, I didn't really run it, I ran and then petered out and pretty much walked the last three miles.

I am going to do this. And I am going to have fun.

And so far this month I have already ran my race! This past Saturday I ran a 5K to support the Girls on the Run foundation here in Michigan. It was the Superhero 5K.

It took me almost 45 minutes to run the thing but I was pushing a jogging stroller with two babies and I had to stop at one point and take on of my guys out of the stroller and walk while carrying him because he was yelling his head off.

Note to self, the boys are not a fan of the 5K.

So this is it. My running/workout/raising kids/raising hell/having fun kind of blog.