Thursday, July 31, 2014

Shout Shout, Let It All Out

Tomorrow I will have a lovely post about this past month's goals and how I did with them and my August goals. Spoilers. I'm going to make my number one goal "don't pass out in my August half marathon".

Then we can also talk about the half marathon I am planning on tackling in September. It's the same one that kicked my ass in 2013 and got me back into running. I'm going to call this Meg Vs. The Women Run the D Half Marathon Part Deaux.

But, I will save more info on that for a latter day. (Thank you Book of Mormon)

Instead I will spout off some random things that I've been thinking or doing or plotting.

*My role in this show is that of a gorilla. I move like a gorilla, or more like a chimp since we walk upright, but with lots of squatting and kinda holding my body in a lowered position. Last night was the first night I have really done that for the whole show and my quads are sore. Workout in disguise yay!

*I had a glass of pink lemonade sparkling wine last night. It was fabulous and didn't even taste like alcohol which is not necessarily a good thing. It's from a local brewery so I will try it again next time I go.

*Of course during my week of non-running the weather has been perfect for running. Sigh.

*I have been drinking too much diet soda. But, with these late nights I have needed caffeine to get me through. Yet another thing I will have to reign in next week.

*I maybe had a bit of an Old Navy binge. $85 later and I've got some tank tops a hopefully cute dress and two pairs of jeans heading my way. I don't ever shop for jeans online but these were on sale so I am throwing caution to the wind. I'll let you know if it was worth it in 3-5 business days.

Something random going on with you?

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

'Cause We are the Champions, My Friend

My little A. came through his surgery like a champ. In fact, I am positive it was much, much harder for Hubs and I.

Obviously, I haven't been running or working out these past few days. Rehearsals have been a mess. A huge storm rolled through the area on Sunday and left almost 100,000 people without power INCLUDING the Community Center where we are performing. We are theatre people and therefore dramatic people. You can only imagine how well that has gone over.

It's alright, it's keeping me on my toes. And in a few days things will be settled down and it'll be back to normal for me.

I can't wait!

Monday, July 28, 2014

For One So Small, You Seem So Strong

As my mom said to me this morning, "Your shoes match and you look presentable. You're good."

We are both holding our shit together on the outside and freaking out on the inside.

My mom, bless her heart, went to mass yesterday because "extra prayers aren't going to hurt."

As you can tell, A.'s surgery is still on for tomorrow so it's clearly on my mind.

But, let's focus on something else!

We had a great weekend. I ran my July 5K with an old friend from high school. The next bits will be a quick review.

SterlingFast 5K Review
 The race started at 9:00AM. With it being July there was definitely potential for it to be hot. Luckily, we're having pockets of cool days and this one was great. The humidity was very low, the temps were in the 70's and there was a fantastic breeze.

It was a smallish race, maybe four hundred people, so packet pick-up was pretty easy. Both B. and I registered after the cut-off date for a guaranteed t-shirt but we both ended up with one which was always nice.

We had enough time to kill that we could walk back to our cars to drop off our t-shirts and bags.

Oh, and we also got a wrist band for a free beer at the end of the race. Fun!

B. and I both decided we would stick to about a 12:30/mile pace. This was a little fast for her and since I hadn't run since the previous Monday it was just about right for me.

Look at that slightly cloudy beautiful sky!
There were TWO water stops (obviously they were prepared in case it was HOT) which was great. The race started on a main road (the race was part of Sterlingfest, the city's festival, so the road was closed for that) and then after 1.25 miles, the course turned onto a paved nature trail.

The nature trail had one or two hills but nothing too steep. We powered through the toughest one and the photographer at the top cheered us on.

B. ended up with a PR! She asked to slow down about a quarter mile from the finish. As we rounded a corner a volunteer (all of them were very nice) told us we were almost as the finish. I was following it on my Map My Run app so I knew it was true. B. decided to power through so we picked up the pace. The finish was fun, we crossed a bridge and then there was the finish line. Woo-hoo!
After the race we joined a line of people and picked up our treats. There was PLENTY of food, even for those of us who finished towards the end. One thing I wish they had done was split the bagels in half. I wanted some sort of carb but not a whole bagel and B. didn't want one so I ended up throwing half out.

Then we joined the beer line which was nice and fast.I had my first summer shandy. They were really popular a few summers ago, but I was pregnant so I've never had one. It was good!

Overall I would give this race an A. The cost was right, the crowd was great, it was well supported. This is only the second year they've done this, too and you would never know it. I'll be doing it again next year for sure!

Official finish time: 37:27

I don't know where the last two-tenths of a mile went! And look at how well we did sticking to our pace!
After the 5K I was supposed to go to rehearsal. I wasn't absolutely needed there so I didn't go. I enjoyed the extra time with my boys. Since I won't see them much this week, I'm glad I did it. I also managed to grocery shop while they napped which was even better.

Hubs and I had date night Saturday night. We had dinner then went to his cousin's house for a small gathering.

 Between the 5K, not drinking enough water, and the two glasses of wine I had Saturday night I ended up with a screaming headache on Sunday. Unfortunately, Hubs had to work. Luckily, it was nice enough the boys could play outside for most of the day.

In honor of my part in Tarzan: The Musical I had to get the boys this for their cereal this week:
Kid tested, Kala approved
 I know this is very babbley but that's just where my brain is right now. Hope you all had a fantastic weekend!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

I'll Be Back in the High Life Again

I screwed up a 102 day streak on My Fitness Pal by not logging in yesterday. While it isn't that big of a deal you can clearly tell that my mindset has not been in the right place. Forgetting to log my food yesterday, I didn't make horrible choices just not excellent choices, sucks.

It's alright. I logged today. I didn't fall of the wagon. I'm not on a wagon, this is just my life. And sometimes in life things get messed up and you forget to track your food. Ah well.

In other news, insurance snafu is all straightened out and A. is set for his tube surgery next Tuesday.

And in other, other news, one of my high school friends will be in town this weekend and is going to run the 5K race with me. It's been awhile since I've had running company so that will be nice!

And in other, other, other news...OK now I'm just messing with you.

Thanks for all the virtual hugs and well wishes. It means so much to me knowing you've got my back!

Running and weights tonight. It's in the 70's again here in Michigan. I have friends who are complaining because they want the heat and the sunshine. Clearly, they are not runners. 70, cloudy and breezy with low humidity in July?!?! I'll take it!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

I Was Walking With My Feet Ten Feet Off of Beale

When things are pretty crappy sometimes all you have to do is lace up your shoes and get the eff out of your house.

And that's what I did.
My splits are all over the place but that's alright. I was moving and just letting my brain blank out.

I run along a cemetery for part of my route. I was thinking about it, thinking how ten years ago I would've been freaked out by running past a cemetery at dusk. Ten years later I am far more aware of the fact that I have a lot more to fear from the living people than I do from the deceased. Not that anything bad happened to me last night. Just that I am more aware of the people around me and what they are doing. The cemetery is the least of my worries.

Hubs and I had taken the boys up to the pool after dinner. We walked there and back to the house and for some reason I felt the need to speed walk both ways. I noticed on my run that my calves bothered me a bit and every now and then I would get a twinge in hips. I'm chalking it up to the earlier walking and playing in the pool.

Maybe things aren't 100% right now. But they certainly feel better. Ah the magic of motion.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Honestly I Want to See You Be Brave

Oh the weekend was so good. We had fun. We played. There were splash pads and swings at the park and fun fun fun. We were like Tiggers up in here!

And then things went to hell in a hand basket.

It's personal, which sounds dumb, because why I am bringing it up on my blog if I don't want to talk about it, and not really my story to share. It involves me but it's not mine. Does that make sense?

I will think of our fun weekend instead.

And also this:

And in other non-shitty news, I signed up for my monthly 5K. I seem to be waiting until the end of the month lately, huh? Well, it's this Saturday. I will run, head to the local community center to shower and then go to my play rehearsal. We have THREE rehearsals left before tech week. My how times flies!

Thursday, July 17, 2014

We Are Never, Ever Getting Back Together

I am breaking up with my scale, at least temporarily.

It's not you, it's me.

I have been working hard with my cardio and my strength training. My eating isn't SPOT on but it's at 80% which is where I intend to be for the rest of my life.

My weight loss has stalled. Puttered out. Given up.

And that frustrates me and makes me mad and makes me want to eat a dozen donuts because eff it, clearly dieting isn't doing shit for me.

I don't want that mentality. I am really enjoying my strength workouts and watching the muscle definition creep out in my arms and legs. I know I am getting stronger because I am lifting more weight.

 I am really enjoying my runs now that I've added cross training in and I can see that all those leg extensions help me be a better runner.

I am going to enjoy my "on it's way to healthy" body. I am going to bask in the post workout glow. I am going to do steps and marching in place during commercial breaks. I am going to eat well.

And if it takes forever for the pounds to fall off, so be it.

I won't be keeping track, at least not that closely.

And now for some morning run pictures. I haven't been on a morning run in ages. I forget how hard it is for me to get moving that first mile. But, get moving I did.
I liked how the rising sun was like a spotlight on this tree.

A community garden! I had no idea this was here. Might see if I can jump on it next season.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

And Breathe...Just Breathe

"C. fell down the steps. He might need stitches."

Yep, I got that call yesterday afternoon as I was doing my daily lunch break walk.

I made it home in record time, ignoring the panic filling my chest. Have you ever seen a home improvement show where they use spray insulation? It's sprayed onto the walls of the attic or wherever and as soon as it hits the walls it puffs up? I felt like someone was filling my chest with spray foam.

But I held my shit together.

And C. ended up with some surgical glue, steri-strips and NO STITCHES (thank goodness!).

This is the first time I've had to take a kid to urgent care but this won't be the last, I know it. Shoot, Hubs wants the Guys to play hockey so goodness knows there will be accidents on the ice.

At least one of us took a nap on the way home.
The best thing I can say about yesterday is I did manage to get a 1.5 mile walk in before I got the phone call. And instead of eating my way through my house as a reaction to my nerves and panic, I just went about my day eating as normal. Two checks in the Plus Column.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

This is the Story of a Girl Who Cried a River and Drowned the Whole World

This is the face of a woman who is barely holding her shit together:
You can't really tell in that picture because I was so excited about getting the front row tickets to The Book of Mormon. But, it's true. Mama is losing it!

A. was scheduled to get tubes in his ears today. I started battling with the doctor's office AND the insurance company last Thursday because they don't show that A. is active on my insurance. I assure, he is. After much back and forth for the last four days I ended up having to reschedule his surgery.

This sucks. The possibility exists the little guy could get ANOTHER ear infection before surgery. The ENT is on vacation next week so we had to push it back TWO WEEKS. Because of the stupid mother effing insurance company.

On top of all that, I already had the added stress of WORRYING about the surgery to begin with. And now it's just been extended for two more weeks.

I could kick someone in the shins.

But, I won't.

Although I really want to.

Instead I will share two fun pictures my own friends have shared with me recently.

This first one was from my friend who sent me this while she was on vacation in Florida. It's nice knowing people are thinking about me even when they are far away.
You should always share your Diet Coke with me. It will make me happy.
And another friend, one I am running the half with in August, shared this with me yesterday:
I'm sure you've seen this before. I'm not big on social media so it's new to me!
I am a personal fan of Rule number 2!

Monday, July 14, 2014

As They Make Their Way Across the Universe

I have been doing a lot of cross training (swimming, running stairs) and hitting the weights a few times a week. I hear it over and over, how much it helps runners to do stuff other than run.

People, let me tell you, it has certainly made a difference for me!

I ran on Monday last week and then didn't run again until Sunday night. My plan is all screwed up and I'm trying to build mileage without going TOO quickly to avoid injury. But, I also don't have a whole ton of time here so I'm dealing with it and working things out.

Yep, I had almost a week between runs.

In that time, I did manage some strength training, some swimming and some other indoor workouts.

My plan was AT LEAST four miles with the option of a fifth mile if I still felt good. I ran 2.5 out and 2.5 back. And as I was running back, passing mile four, I realized something: even with a week between runs my legs felt excellent. I could've added a sixth mile but didn't want to push it and it was getting pretty dark.

All of my miles, aside from my first one with my five minute walking warm up, were under thirteen minutes. I did a 2:1 run/walk ratio for all you Galloway runners.


I feel less like "dear god, why did I sign up for a half marathon in August?" and more like "OK I can do this. It'll be slow, but I can do it".

As for the weekend, Hubs and I had a spectacular date night on Saturday night. We ended up with FRONT ROW tickets to The Book of Mormon. To give you an idea of just how good it was, my non-theatre-loving husband woke up Sunday morning singing songs from the show. So funny! I wish I could count all the calories I burned laughing my butt off!

Friday, July 11, 2014

And Now I Can Feel the Excitement, This is the Moment I Was Born to Do

I am going to attempt to get lottery tickets for Book of Mormon this weekend. Hoping for Saturday night so keep your fingers and toes crossed. I have heard nothing but funny and hilarious things about it. FUN!

If I don't get them then I will spend Saturday night with Hubs hopefully on a date night a Mexican/Italian place. I know it sounds odd but a co-worker RAVES about it. How can I resist?

When the boys are in bed tonight I will head out for a run. If I don't get too carried away Saturday night I will get up at the asscrack of dawn super early on Sunday and go for a six miler. Wish me luck!

I'd also like to swim on Saturday and Sunday while the boys are napping. Hubs might be working tomorrow so I would have to do some finagling to get a baby-sitter. I'll figure something out.

And I was invited to a cast mate's birthday party. The party is tonight and I tried not to cry when I realized it was her 25th birthday. 25 years old. Seems so long ago...

That's my weekend plan, folks. Do you have any shenanigans planned?

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Should I Give Up, Or Should I Just Keep Chasin' Pavements?

I live a lot of my life doubting myself.

I signed up for the August half marathon and about thirty seconds after I received my confirmation email I thought "oh hell, what have I done?".

When I set out on a long run or even a short run doubt is nipping at my heels.

Are you sure you can run three miles?

Are you sure you can run five miles?

Hey, all of those other runners keep passing you. Are you sure you want to do this?

It's not just in running. I doubt myself in other aspects of my life. ( I won't even get started on how I feel about my role as a mother. Doubt Central, people!)

After I got the cast list for the musical I am in and saw my name up there next to a big role my first thought was, "Nope. There's no way I can do this."

Doubt sucks.

We had rehearsal last night. And while it wasn't a grueling rehearsal we did a lot and I had to sing a lot, sometimes by myself which makes me nervous. At the end of rehearsal I was walking out with another cast mate and the music director of the show. We were chatting about our reactions to being cast, this other cast mate saying how he was so excited he didn't have the words to tell his mom.

I said, "That's funny. My first reaction was, 'Someone messed up. There's no way I can do this.'".

The music director looked at me totally stunned and said, " were the FIRST person I cast."

I was shocked.

We all have doubts. I'm sure you have doubts. I'm sure your best friend/your significant other/your dentist have doubts. Remember, like I am trying to, that you're the only one doubting yourself. Everyone else thinks you can do it!

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

In the Still of the Night

Hubs and I settled the boys down for the night, after exhausting them in the swimming pool, and I headed out for a run.

I am being a terrible half marathoner right now and am seriously behind in my training. I don't want to build mileage too fast so I'm figuring out a plan. I can do it, even if I have to walk more than I'd like. I keep telling myself I'd be taking it easy anyway because of it being an August race. Watch, it'll be sixty degrees and cloudy with a cool breeze that day.

I need to get some sort of mileage under my belt, so I headed out for a run last night. My goal was three miles. I ended up with four. Yay for four miles!

Here is where I tell you something I am sure you already know. At least you probably already know it if you are female.

It sucks running at night.

The temperature was perfect, the sun was setting so that wasn't the problem.

The problem was the OTHER people out running or just out and about. I run with a wariness I am sure most of you have experienced. I check behind myself. I am aware of my surroundings. I don't listen to music. I wear my hair in a tight bun instead of in a loose ponytail. I wear oversized t-shirts.

It sounds stupid and maybe silly. I live in a fantastic area. It's a small city that borders another small city and both cities have an excellent police presence.  I run on well lit and busy roads, but not so busy I also need to worry about cars.

But, bad things can happen in good cities.

And there are patches of darkness and empty lots on even the busy roads.

So I follow my runner rules. And I try to enjoy the run as much as I can when half of my brain is focused on what is going on around me.

It sucks, but it's what I do. And I think it's what A LOT of women do.

Funny, I never felt as nervous or wary when I ran in the mornings. I guess there aren't as many people out at that time of day. Looking forward to my schedule getting back to normal in a month so I can run in the AM again.

Monday, July 7, 2014

And Forever in Peace May You Wave

Four day weekends are just the best. I wish I had more of them. I got to hang out with the boys all weekend.

We did the following:

-Swam at the city pool
-Played at the park
-Played in the tiny pool in our backyard
-Walked up to the ice cream shop
-Watched fireworks
-Watched our local city parade
-Had several cookouts

The weekend may not have exhausted the boys (toddlers have boundless energy) but it sure wiped me out.

The weather here was perfect, too. We didn't turn the A/C on until Sunday evening. It was in the mid-70's during the day with no humidity and in the 50's at night. Seriously, it's like Mother Nature was all "Go America!" and celebrated with us.

Aside from all the kid time I had a few victories. First one, I saw a bunch of pictures my mother in law took of us as a family this weekend. For the first time in a long time I didn't look at the pictures and nitpick my appearance. I thought I looked pretty good.

As for the second one, I managed to swim laps on Saturday and Sunday. The outdoor community pool has one lane designated for adult lap swim ONLY. Both days I had the lane to myself for most of my swim. I swam fifty laps on Sunday which felt great. I looked up how many laps equal a mile and realized I was just fifteen laps shy of a mile. I'll get there before the end of the summer, for sure!

I guess a third one, I didn't let my eating get out of control this weekend. Yes, I had the occasional treat (frozen yogurt yum!). But we walked two miles round trip to get the frozen yogurt so I burned some calories doing it. Lucky for me, I'm not a huge fan of cookout sides. I don't really like potato salad or pasta salad or coleslaw (not into mayo at all) so I didn't get carried away at any of the parties we went to. I was pretty impressed by that.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend, too.

And now, back to the grindstone!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

When Summer Burns with Heat/Monthly Recap

And all of a sudden it's July!

Wow, June sucked for me. Check out this awesomeness.

I like how I can clearly see when it got too hot for me to walk during my lunch hour. I don't need to be a hot, sweaty mess for the rest of the work day thankyouverymuch.

Here were my June goals:

1. Walk/Run 75 miles.
Ha. Ha. Ha. I didn't even get in forty-five miles this month. I'm not going to be too hard on myself. I was sick for part of a week and it's been warm here so my lunch walking stopped. I think I'll start walking around the building here instead of outside and just use my pedometer to track the steps. That way at least I'll be moving.

2. Strength train twice a week. TWICE A WEEK, MEG! If you can't find time to lift some weights and do some crunches TWICE A WEEK...well, you can, so just do it.
Ok, how about strength training once a week? I don't know what it is about getting down in the basement to work out. I have managed to do it on most Wednesday evenings but other than that not so much.

3. Lose five pounds.
Again, not so much. I lost some, then gained some back. I lost three pounds. Trying not to be mad at myself.

June was rough.

I am going to be easier on myself when setting up my July goals. Setting myself up for failure is just a stupid idea and will just upset me when I do a monthly recap.

July Goals:
1. Walk/run at least 50 miles.
2. TRACK my strength training at least twice a week. I noticed in July I did more strength training than I logged. I keep forgetting to log my sessions of crunches and push-ups while watching t.v.
3. Lose three pounds.

There. Nothing too crazy, lots of realistic plans. I can do this!