I live a lot of my life doubting myself.
I signed up for the August half marathon and about thirty seconds after I received my confirmation email I thought "oh hell, what have I done?".
When I set out on a long run or even a short run doubt is nipping at my heels.
Are you sure you can run three miles?
Are you sure you can run five miles?
Hey, all of those other runners keep passing you. Are you sure you want to do this?
It's not just in running. I doubt myself in other aspects of my life. ( I won't even get started on how I feel about my role as a mother. Doubt Central, people!)
After I got the cast list for the musical I am in and saw my name up there next to a big role my first thought was, "Nope. There's no way I can do this."
We had rehearsal last night. And while it wasn't a grueling rehearsal we did a lot and I had to sing a lot, sometimes by myself which makes me nervous. At the end of rehearsal I was walking out with another cast mate and the music director of the show. We were chatting about our reactions to being cast, this other cast mate saying how he was so excited he didn't have the words to tell his mom.
I said, "That's funny. My first reaction was, 'Someone messed up. There's no way I can do this.'".
The music director looked at me totally stunned and said, "Meg...you were the FIRST person I cast."
I was shocked.
We all have doubts. I'm sure you have doubts. I'm sure your best friend/your significant other/your dentist have doubts. Remember, like I am trying to, that you're the only one doubting yourself. Everyone else thinks you can do it!